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Electric twinge
reaches my heart
stammering heart
It reaches my brain
my skull pounds
Air is limited
lungs don't expand
Nausea
obscure vision
brink of faint
Body temperature extremes
every time this feels like death
Shake, tremble, shake
the most annoying
I must do nothing
nothing mustn't bother me
Fetal position is best
the blanket over my entire body
I peek through the holes in the blanket
as an outsider looking in
hoping no one can see me
no one will know
A shield
thinking
when I remove this
will I be ok?
Deep breathing
oxygen to brain
As you fade
my body begins to relax
the jaw is tense
I clench it
As I relax
I turn to BSS
you never let me down
Relaxing
with my hands on my chest
still under my shield
I feel my heart
start to regulate
I feel my breath
start to calm
I close my eyes
listening to the music
connecting my heartbeat
to it
it's apart of the rhythm
My breath
it's apart of the rhythm
It must be a calming rhythm
I can count on you
Tracing the violin
with my finger
There need not be anything else at this time
When all ends
I lift the covers off my head
This is your life
welcome
I'm alive
I win